Um, That Was Weird

I read chapter three. My initial reaction to it was WHA? How? Crap! It was convergence on a freakish level. The chapter was about Eve (and her progeny) after the Fall. I can't summarize it with any justice, but let's just say that a good chunk of this chapter found me exactly where I've been the last few weeks. It's as though the book has been hearing/reading my conversations for the last month.

You doubt me? It knew about my dad. It knew about my tendency to shut people out, and it knew all my reasons why. This was a bit disconcerting, especially since I'm just figuring these things out myself. It knew about the abandonment issue, and it knew about my frustration with people who have this thing about disappearing. A brief quote, par example.

Why are most of the relationships of women fraught with hardship?
Their friendships, their families, their best friends all seem to have
come down with a sort of virus that makes them fundamentally unavailable.

Um.

Can I just say this sounds eerily familiar? Granted, in my case, the virus is generally geographic in nature. This cannot be helped. (God bless chat and cell phones!) But it wasn't always that way. I seem to remember having friends who were local who liked to hang out who were not married with kids, or single with kids. And I seem to remember having a few families that counted me as almost one of them. I know it's not entirely on me that they're all gone. Whatever the voices say, I know it's not all my fault.

At least, I think I know it.

At least, I hope it isn't.

Cause that would really suck.

I need to read the chapter again before Thursday. In the meantime, there is much to think on.