Crowd Control
Yesterday afternoon brought with it the hometown reception for my friends whose wedding I recently attended. Being who I am and how long I've known the bride and her family, I knew nearly everyone at this reception. Not only did I know everyone (from church), but they've all been counted friends on some level over the years. Some of them I haven't seen in several years. I went with my friend E, and honestly, I should have just stuck with her. But no.
I tried to talk with a few people. This did not go so well. I am not sure why. I don't generally do well with crowds, and this certainly qualified, but you would think that in a group of 60 people, I might find more than three decent conversations. You might think this, but you'd be wrong. I sure was.
I walked out of there a little depressed, and I was teary through vespers.
That church was home for fourteen years. It was home, though I never really belonged there. Yesterday was a hard reminder of that fact.
I tried to talk with a few people. This did not go so well. I am not sure why. I don't generally do well with crowds, and this certainly qualified, but you would think that in a group of 60 people, I might find more than three decent conversations. You might think this, but you'd be wrong. I sure was.
I walked out of there a little depressed, and I was teary through vespers.
That church was home for fourteen years. It was home, though I never really belonged there. Yesterday was a hard reminder of that fact.
Labels: My (Not Really) Baptist Family
posted by Sam Gamgee at
2:19 PM
5 Comments:
Hey Spidey!! I've been in that situation--this should be home, why am I not more comfortable?? ::Hugs::
Crazier still. I was reasonably comfortable, and even generally well liked. I just didn't fit. I have no idea why.
Well, if it helps your not the only one. You know my story... I understand.
((Spidey))
As an extrovert who doesn't do parties, I can only sympathise.
of course you belonged in the home church for a while -- otherwise you would never have found E and me. and we wouldn't have found you! and now you belong somewhere new with all of its adventures!
-- nathan
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